Thursday, July 2, 2015

Look Up Today, Appreciate the Sky

The next time you're feeling overwhelmed or stressed out, take a break from reality to look up, forget your problems and appreciate the sky. Recently, my days have hardly been days. I work 8 hours, Monday-Friday and I'm usually too mentally exhausted to spend time with friends. My exhaustion transformed into a bout of writer's block and I've been having difficulty finding inspiration for a new blog post. I haven't left my house for more than a few hours and all recent pictures on my phone are of the sky, but only because my work desk faces a window.

I've been thinking a lot about what I'm missing out on this summer. All while I've been spending my days staring at a computer screen, life continues on without me. My friends still attend summer school, the Subway continues to run and the sun rises every morning and sets every evening. Everywhere, there is life, but life is finite everywhere. Most of us don't spend our summers sitting around, contemplating our meagerness, but for some reason that's what I keep doing. And through all this contemplation, I've discovered that life is a paradox. We are expected to achieve "life goals" like get jobs, date around and make our parents proud, but even if I suddenly cease to exist, life will continue existing without me.

Time is the human conception of infinity, and infinity is the human conception of our insignificance. Although we exist, we don't truly know why we're here or what role we're supposed to play. Just the thought of an infinite universe--which we are only a part of for a short period of time--is an idea that we don't fully understand. So what is out there? Will we ever know? Should we be upset that nothing matters in the end?

Why do we strive to achieve these "life goals" when we know that we don't matter, that life will always go on and that people can survive without us? Perhaps the triviality of our existence actually makes us appreciate the life we've been given. Or maybe our "life goals" simply feed the natural desire for all living things to grow, learn, move on and exist.

Perhaps in the end, that's all we know how to do.

(Photos taken in Lafayette, CA)